funny how it takes the supposedly happy times into times that show u the truth and make it not so happy =/

i know you told me so and i still went head first into it..

as happy as i may be that george is talkin to me again... iunoe if it was a good thing. but i guess it shows me something else in another way... it is hard to let go :( even tho i said i will stop goin after chau, still have lingering feelings... and i never even had her as a gf..

after piecing things together with chau's update saying she regrets doin something she would not do sober and janelle saying somethin about making out and paul/geo saying something about chau getting it on in the bathroom... = george + chau = making out. also explains i guess why she went to her car after dinner...

HMPH ! o well will try not to think about it much now..

school starts tomorrow... for me wednesday... hopefully after you go home... i can concentrate on my GRE's and school. and thats it.

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lol as i was writing this... thought i had a "ying hong gao mei" thing going but "duk goh gut" joh after i got there... lol took me like 10 minutes to find a parking spot... which is when you told me you didnt need me anymore... i decided to sit in the spot for like 10-15 minutes to make it more worth it finding the spot.. listened to some music while watching people pre-game in the garage lol...

hope you will be okay tonight (even tho by the time u read this, ud be at home after this vacation already) .. i just wish for your happiness..

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do do dododo... yah iunoe if spending money on her is much worth it anymore.. i dont pay for her anymore.. we just pay for ourselves now when we go out to eat... xmas i didnt have anything special for her as a gift... bought her fav desage milk chocolate with hazelnuts today at neiman marcus... may be the last "Expensive" gift i get her... aside from feelin guilty from her getting me a new stainless steel tea kettle.. and had to have her exchange for a new one cuz the paint was chipping off...

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la la la la la... la... la... meh nothin to do now.. after doin that wynn run... back at home.. tomorrow is your supposed day with paul.. wonder how that will go.. tomorrow at 330, have an appt to go to julie's rental house to take pictures... then wednesday (lol i typed whensday at first HAHA...) after dinner with u... go to boss' house to meet with her and the web designers on having a tutorial on how to update the site..

maybe should sleep early tonight... or maybe actually start studying vocab for GREs again ... iunoe...

happy dofu = happy tofu. oh speaking of names, if u dislike being called dofu, please tell me... >< i know how it feels to be called something u dont like thats not ur name... so if u are uncomfortable with it or not happy with me or anyone calling u that, please tell me.. or anything else i do that u dont like :]

heh first update in like a few months and i end up rambling about my failures..

speakin of failures, wonder if i should have lied about some of those cards last night... o well was all for fun right? maybe i should get YOU drunk ;) jk i wouldnt dare to do that to u or anyone.