Blah today had my genetics test. Hope I did ok.

Sorry Doris. Forgot to reply you last night. Cramming head off for the exam.

Hm... Yeah this so called relationship. Don't know what to do with it. I know every relationship had it's ups and downs but what happens when it seems there are more downs than ups? It may seen like she's doing a lot for me but does it mean anything when she complains about it afterward?

Funny how something you were lookin forward to doing for almost a year before, you find out that were didn't get selected to do it, and they picked someone else...

Kind of irritated on top of what happened over the weekend. sigh. maybe its time to drop photography. too much of a hassle atm. not as enjoyable anymore =/

for someone who supposedly own's a huge business, grew up in a business family, and is spoiled to death by parents is surprisingly sensitive when it comes to money -.-"

when someone says "dont worry about it, ive forgotten/gave up about it", that's supposed to happen. not bring it back up later -.-" then that means u do worry about it and not forgotten about it.

and for someone who said to have grew up with a photographer father and done so much photography to be so competitive and picky without doing much work and only standing and staying in one spot.. maybe i shouldn't have pushed to ask her to go..

starting to realize, ... the more we thought we were similar, the more differences there actually are.. lots of things that are irritating me... isnt being together supposed to be more happy times? i dont feel so happy -.-" maybe i should just end it. i dont want to hurt her, and shes done a lot for me... but it seems so one sided right now. i tried giving it a chance and see if more feelings develop but seems like, as more time passes, its almost the less feelings i have for her... =/

maybe it was not meant to be.

after i pay her back for the stuff she helped me buy with military discount from black friday and the additional money i said i'd split with her back in Aug ... probably will end it. Before she goes back to japan for winter break next tuesday. she said she's coming back on the 31st for me. but in all honesty, at this point, i dont know if i want to........

sigh

meh iunoe. all was going well with jasmine for quite a while but iunoe thigns to be going on a downhill now... 

for some reason, things shes been doin lately been pissing me off? 

actually considering not going on with this... for some reason doesnt seem right =/.. 

deun tong ho goh cherng tong right... iunoe.. she wanted to talk to me today after class but i went to dinner with chau... i dont like serious talks.. but i didnt know why she wanted to talk today .. 

for a long while i thought it would have been a decent relationship cuz of all the similar interests and what not. but iunoe if its her personality to or what not, the things shes been doin lately... rawr.. ><

braggin about getting into any med school she wants easily... ones i dream of going to -.- which is weird cuz ive seen her test grades and they arent that impressive, if not sometimes worse than mine. 

braggin how she can get her dad to pay for whatever... bragging on how much money she can get from her family and what not... bragging about a family business that no one knows if it exists or not... 

iunoe... i know i sometimes brag about somethings and i guess it is human nature to compete against others but seems a bit excessive... 

there was a guy who i "used to be friends with..." .. he excessively bragged about things even things i knew for a fact he was not good at.. cuz of how he explained it... not saying im an expert in computers but yeah... then  he became a creepy kind of guy who like talks about a girl of interest day in and day out all day long... or forces himself into others relationships cuz he thinks he can do better.. NO BUENO. ME NO LIKE. fk u. LOL 

then her personality ... iunoe if its independency or wanna be like a lui kerng yun or something... very tom boyish... very forceful in things... 

iunoe... there was quite the few good times but iunoe if those good times can overpower or overwrite these bad things... iunoe we will see what happens... shun kei jee yeen right? >_> 

RAWR!

Tough Mudder Accomplished. 6 hrs. 11 miles. 25 obstacles (skipped a few).

 Long story short. COLD. FKING COLD. CRAMPS. LOTS OF FREAKING CRAMPS. THIRSTY. BACK PAIN ! Now suffering from soreness. haha =P

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 Watched We got Married on youtube of Taeyeon and Hyungdon. So jealous of him ! 3 months to be "married" to taeyeon. and have all that stuff done. Taeyeon reminds me of Pat. think im in the bangs, long straight hair period LOL. taeyeon ! XD so it was filmed in 2009. seeing pictures of her now, she looks so different =3 style changed. :( she was cuter back then ! why am i always late in finding out these people.. THEY WERE IN LA IN AUG TOO ! QQ COME TO VEGAS RAWR !

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 Went to Renaissance Fair for the first time, met jasmine's guild, Le Troupe?. its like a spanish guild. fun people. Went there on friday for a little bit. wish i wasnt tired and didnt have tough mudder the next day. i wanted to check out the fair. stayed at jasmines so they wouldnt have to drive across town to get me for tough mudder. slept early. woke up at like 130 -.- son of a .. stayed awake until jasmine woke up from her alarm at like 4. got to victors by like 530 and we left. found out his mom's hyundai sante fe, in the rear seats.. HAS SEAT BELTS but NOT THE CLICKER U PUT THE SEAT BELT INTO ! D: yeah i was seatbeltless the entire trip. o well.

errr

anyone who knows me would think id like a girly girl. long hair, some sort of make up.. dresses.. etc.. even i thought that... how i became to like jasmine? i dont know i guess i really did follow what i say. its more the personality than looks? i mean i still like girls who have like beautiful hair.. nice eyes smile.. dress pretty and stuff but something about jasmine iunoe LOL shes like the tom boyish kind? kind of weird iunoe ! ! ! !

Cloudy

It's been quite a long while since I had posted one of these.. just lookin back, its been 5 months almost exactly. There's a long story with a girl i met at HAK's Korean Talent Show in May who's named Jenni. Cali trip with parents.. Doris visiting with the guys... Sheena and Juan's last minute marriage... Julie's Birthday... Sam's birthday.. AdventureDome with Julie Julie Day OCA Convention... Seattle/Vancouver Trip with parents... Doris visiting again but with Toshimi ! and JC San Diego Trip w/ Jasmine and Victor my birthday and being surprised -.-" >< Lots of time with Jasmine Photography Workshop (lol im actually going thru my calender naming these... i dont remember em all) then upcoming Tough Mudder on Saturday i dont even know where to start LOL. but it wont be that long story about Jenni. Cali Trip with parents. eh just went around eating. LOL Doris visiting with the guys. Interesting experiences as always. Met Shabbir for the first time. But note to self, never go to Steak n Eggs at 5 in the morning again and try driving home ... so dangerous.. oh did i mention the weather was bipolar and the wind was like super high? lol Sheena and Juan's wedding.. aiyah.. its like a few days notice.. seriously. no one knew until like 3 days prior. oh my god. LOL went over the night before to help prepare their house for the wedding (obviously wont find a venue so last minute and very budgeted) Julie's birthday.. .. OH we went to tokyo japanese restaurant... had some FRESH halibut sashimi and a combination sashimi platter.. was yummy but not enough for pigs like me and george lmao. i dont know why i was full tho ? went to bellagio for dessert and show afterwards at PH. We surprised her at her house XD priceless picture :P one of our friends knew the garage code so we could get in. bwahahaha Sam's birthday... yardhouse.. swim? was there swimming... think so.. forgot what movie we watched or what we did that day LOL AdventureDome with Julie and the peoples.. interesting experience.. LOL oh me and julie got trolled by a kid at the roller coaster. we set up to go all at the same tiem but kid in front of us wanted to go alone... -.-" made me and julie fall back ;_; bowling n steak n eggs.. typical stuff XD Julie day.. OH julie's opticoat day. met with her like early morning like 7 to get her new car opticoated.. took her to breakfast.. then we went to the gym.. then lunch, then desserts.. then went to pick up her car then uhm.. fresh cup then went home.. OCA Convention.. oh god we didnt get much sleep .. early morning.. last night.,.. every day.. LOL one day was even getting home at like 3 and waking up at 6.. >_< i met a few interesting people... one was an actress.. VERY interesting person LOL Seattle/Vancouver with Parents... used my 2 southwest vouchers finally. and used some points on my southwest visa for my flight. went to vancouver for 4ish days. then seattle rest. went to a decent amount of places. food was eh in vancouver tho. was kind of disappointed. kind of expensive too. OH MY GOD. there was this one thai/malaysian restaurant that we went to, THEY DIDNT ACCEPT VISA D: WTF?! thank god we had cash >_> uhhh seattle... event happened which made me and mom decide that this will be the LAST family of 3 vacation. i cant deal with her sometimes or dad. she cant deal with dad. lol. Doris visiting with toshimi.. fun times.. great to know toshimi a lot better. talked a lot in the car. Weather was bipolar as all hell again tho. chau's party was ok. it was really stuffy. so was in the bedroom most of the time to get air conditioning. dragged jasmine with me cuz i was bored. things... KIND of went on from there LOL more on that later.. 2 day san diego trip with jasmine and victor. that was fun. went to sea world and san diego zoo. tho it was only 2 days, was pretty fun. want to do it again. or just a trip with friends. my birthday. so i didnt decide on what to do for my bday until like the weekend before. i picked sushi twister cuz i had a card filled up so free and it was expiring soon.. so it was a normal dinner.. OH cousin happened to be laying over in vegas for a few hours so i picked him up and took him to dinner too. normal piggy dinner.. then at the end.. apparently jasmine made a cake for me... and made an secret event on FB gathering people to get me presents.. oh my god =.= if i wasnt in front of people, i would have cried. nothin like this ever happened before =3 but it was definitely a memorable birthday. oh Doris prior to her trip to vegas, she said shed get me a present, which was a cooler for my newly built computer. but apparently jasmine got quite a bit of people and got me more stuff.. ;_; T__T man i love you guys >< i knew there was something weird about jasmine adding doris on fb before they met each other >_> lol jasmine. uh. the end. XD photography workshop. eh it was something i said i was gonna do quite a long time ago (like last year?) so i created an event on fb, got like 15+ people attending, 15+ maybes.. guess how many showed up? .. like 7. *sigh* kind of disappointed but at least i was able to teach a few people? ------------------------- future topic.. im attending tough mudder on saturday... im plannin on goin at a moderate/slow pace to be safe. but we will see. hope things go well. im leading a photowalk in vegas on oct 13 for the worldwide photowalk. hope that goes well. ----------------------------------------- but eh back to jasmine... after these uhm past 1 1/2 months? ive been still kind of iffy if i should officially be with her or not. i like her but some parts of her personality, i dont like. i know not everyone is perfect but iunoe if its something i am okay with? iunoe. we will see. we've been seeing each other a lot. but im just hoping my friends dont think im ignoring them because of it. i really hope i dont do that. been a while since ive seen chau or went to eat with her. kind of miss those times. but iunoe yeah... still in deciding stages...

TaeTiSeo - Baby steps

Love you Doris. I'll write it later this week. lol. <3

rawr

*flips a table* gave a girl i met today my phone number. . . . idea of getting HER number flew over my head . . . .

so i have may done something that has caused chau to be mad/sad... tho in one point of view, i wasnt wrong... people who play that game (besides doris) is getting way way too addicted to it... like tuesday we went to BWW, she couldnt stay off her phone to eat 10 wings... >_> thats bad imo.. but in another point of view, if anyone took my phone or my camera, id be mad/sad too.. =.= iunoe !

oh yah... eat breakfast more too. lol

New Year. New Resolutions. A New Beginning.

So i came to think of some things i can do this year...

1 - Completely drop Chau in considering anything more than a friend. Maybe max good friend.

2 - Concentrate on GREs and the classes im taking this semester

3 - Self improvement. Either continue and get better in tennis or badminton... or maybe pick up something new thats more interesting than goin to the gym and doin the same thing over n over or in circles...

4 - maybe ill contact sheila again.. she was a nice girl... smart, lazy, outgoing, kind of shy (lol past 4 things i mentioned contradict eachother), really easy to talk to, naturally pretty (even tho she does these kind of weird poses for pictures but what can you expect, she was born in hong kong...), shes fairly tall, esp for a girl and coming from HK and speaks canto... ooh ooh loves joey too ^__^ lol

5 - depending on the schedule these few months, maybe ill take up on the offer Leng has brought up to me to be introduced to Ted Federwitz, broker and owner of Key Realty, renowned across the country in doing a almost 1 billion dollars worth of business in the past like 20 years. Key Realty has about 60 something agents so if i were to be introduced and brought up to just that brokerage,... O.O
before i was given this idea, i had came up with the idea for going to some local, nearby real estate brokerages and offering my photography services b/c workin for ... 2 agents is SO not enough. LOL need money to spend when doris comes or just going out to eat normally... or have money saved up for vacation and what not :D

6 - if spring semester months go well, have GREs done and submitted apps for grad school... ill maybe consider taking real estate school for 4 weeks. only costs less than 500 dollars and books are provided. if i had planned better, i probably would have done the schooling already in the past fall months... oops?

hehe funny actually wanted someone to talk to last night but you were out.. ended up writing it up on here...

slept in again today (wow.. im sleeping more than 4 hrs while you are in vegas... SURPRISING !!!)

julie texted me earlier in the morning and asked if she can come along to her rental house.. and lunch before hand..

so thats what im gonna do today...

lunch with julie
go to the rental house in africa (actually i havent looked up where it was... )
then come home to have "teun leen fan" with family

school starts tomorrow for me... dododo

lunch with u tomorrow..
class..
break...
class...
dinner with u tomorrow
meeting with boss and web designer

then back to the school life after that =3 as always i enjoy seeing you. =]

oh i should head out now lol

funny how it takes the supposedly happy times into times that show u the truth and make it not so happy =/

i know you told me so and i still went head first into it..

as happy as i may be that george is talkin to me again... iunoe if it was a good thing. but i guess it shows me something else in another way... it is hard to let go :( even tho i said i will stop goin after chau, still have lingering feelings... and i never even had her as a gf..

after piecing things together with chau's update saying she regrets doin something she would not do sober and janelle saying somethin about making out and paul/geo saying something about chau getting it on in the bathroom... = george + chau = making out. also explains i guess why she went to her car after dinner...

HMPH ! o well will try not to think about it much now..

school starts tomorrow... for me wednesday... hopefully after you go home... i can concentrate on my GRE's and school. and thats it.

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lol as i was writing this... thought i had a "ying hong gao mei" thing going but "duk goh gut" joh after i got there... lol took me like 10 minutes to find a parking spot... which is when you told me you didnt need me anymore... i decided to sit in the spot for like 10-15 minutes to make it more worth it finding the spot.. listened to some music while watching people pre-game in the garage lol...

hope you will be okay tonight (even tho by the time u read this, ud be at home after this vacation already) .. i just wish for your happiness..

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do do dododo... yah iunoe if spending money on her is much worth it anymore.. i dont pay for her anymore.. we just pay for ourselves now when we go out to eat... xmas i didnt have anything special for her as a gift... bought her fav desage milk chocolate with hazelnuts today at neiman marcus... may be the last "Expensive" gift i get her... aside from feelin guilty from her getting me a new stainless steel tea kettle.. and had to have her exchange for a new one cuz the paint was chipping off...

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la la la la la... la... la... meh nothin to do now.. after doin that wynn run... back at home.. tomorrow is your supposed day with paul.. wonder how that will go.. tomorrow at 330, have an appt to go to julie's rental house to take pictures... then wednesday (lol i typed whensday at first HAHA...) after dinner with u... go to boss' house to meet with her and the web designers on having a tutorial on how to update the site..

maybe should sleep early tonight... or maybe actually start studying vocab for GREs again ... iunoe...

happy dofu = happy tofu. oh speaking of names, if u dislike being called dofu, please tell me... >< i know how it feels to be called something u dont like thats not ur name... so if u are uncomfortable with it or not happy with me or anyone calling u that, please tell me.. or anything else i do that u dont like :]

heh first update in like a few months and i end up rambling about my failures..

speakin of failures, wonder if i should have lied about some of those cards last night... o well was all for fun right? maybe i should get YOU drunk ;) jk i wouldnt dare to do that to u or anyone.

hi dofu. love u. bai bai :D