for someone who supposedly own's a huge business, grew up in a business family, and is spoiled to death by parents is surprisingly sensitive when it comes to money -.-"

when someone says "dont worry about it, ive forgotten/gave up about it", that's supposed to happen. not bring it back up later -.-" then that means u do worry about it and not forgotten about it.

and for someone who said to have grew up with a photographer father and done so much photography to be so competitive and picky without doing much work and only standing and staying in one spot.. maybe i shouldn't have pushed to ask her to go..

starting to realize, ... the more we thought we were similar, the more differences there actually are.. lots of things that are irritating me... isnt being together supposed to be more happy times? i dont feel so happy -.-" maybe i should just end it. i dont want to hurt her, and shes done a lot for me... but it seems so one sided right now. i tried giving it a chance and see if more feelings develop but seems like, as more time passes, its almost the less feelings i have for her... =/

maybe it was not meant to be.

after i pay her back for the stuff she helped me buy with military discount from black friday and the additional money i said i'd split with her back in Aug ... probably will end it. Before she goes back to japan for winter break next tuesday. she said she's coming back on the 31st for me. but in all honesty, at this point, i dont know if i want to........