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you asked me what i was thinking, i couldn't tell you. even if i had it all typed out, i couldn't press enter to send it to you.

since your visit in January, since that night, there hasn't been a day that has passed since then where I had not regretted not doing what had been on my mind that night. I could have prevented so many things happening, i could have stopped it... i could have... maybe if i had stopped it, i wouldn't be feeling what i am feeling now... i don't know if its jealousy... or there's something that i cant explain myself.. i know you want fun but that one day, when we were talking, you were saying all these guys going for you the second you are "kinda available"... made me unhappy.. iunoe why.. did your visit changed my feelings for you THAT much?!? *sigh* i dont know anymore.

i don't even think anyone reads this but hey at least i can "express it" so it doesnt only get stuck in my head :( but it doesnt seem to have helped much :( i still have this uneasyness inside me...

*puffs face* back to studying =3