i give up

why is it so hard?? why is it so hard for me??

oh right. im not cute. i dont have a sexy body. i dont catch their eye. im not handsome.

not only do i fail in life... i cant even dream about it anymore... i even fail during dreaming... last night, i had a dream... i tried going to find her, not only did i have the worse luck like "oh sorry, she just left...." kind of thing.. it seemed like the world was a maze... not only do i have the worse luck in timing, the world becomes a maze and i cant get out to go find her...

i give up.. even if i didnt want to go as far as a relationship, just wanting to SEE her... i cant even do... im seriously getting tired... single for 6 yrs in college? wow. whatever -.-"

getting disappointed day after day... i give up. *sigh* good night. wait i just woke up.