hmmm

so for some reason, lately ive been dreaming about a lot of people lately...

vi...
chau...
mysterious girl... that i didnt know who it was but it did kind of look like the girl i met last night lmao....

iunoe... seems kind of weird... all the dreams seemed nice too :( but the question comes up "does dreams come true?" come up... and probably not... well maybe last nights about me goin to bakery after chau did and buyin all these cakes lmao... xDDD oink ^oo^ rofl.

this other girl who i had recently found out who would be interested in goin on a date or something with me... now has another interest... iunoe why that kind of makes me sad... nothin has ever started.. in fact, we arent even that close as friends yet. iunoe..

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so last night. it hit me. exactly 2 weeks till graduation. X_x am i not gonna be able to sleep again like high school? lmao... we will seeeee

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lately ive noticed ive been hanging out with rachel a lot... iunoe... she just seems fun to hang out with... one thing i liked was last week after insert coins, helping her with her bf get back to the car, she gave me a big big hug before we split to each of our cars... it was nice o.O iuunoe maybe because for some odd reason, we never give each other hugs when we see each other like with other people... seems... odd? iunoe but that 1 hug.. was nice.. tho she pressed her head into my chest pretty hard and i had my necklace and the pendant on... iunoe how that would have felt for her... i felt it being pressed into my chest D:

and omg speaking of rachel.. HER. DRUNK. + Street Fighter 4... will own most people D: why? drunken button mashing that makes her do things even we can do... and... she cheatssssss !!! D: i could be willing by a lot.. she'd SCREAM into your ear moving ur attention from the TV to her.. then when u look back at the tv.. u have like || life left.. i was like WTHH !!! this happened like a few times D: >< freaking rachel :( meanie butt.. she got a blister from button mashing like 10 games. lmao... hard core drunk player hehehe =P

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do do dododo do dododo do do.. ba ba bababa.. damn you chau, thats still stuck in my head once in a while :(

so i need more confidence... something hard to change over night but im trying... >< wish i had more time to practice those songs rachel wants me to sing at karaoke... funny how over the past few years, ive always wished for someone, to sing chinese songs with me.. whether be normal or duet... now that i found one, i cant do it :( *sigh*

vi would rather die then sing at karaoke period. dofu... she... well i never been karaoke with her.. lol but iunoe if she sings that much for karaoke... i remember listenin to her singing in her hotel room when we were laying in her bed at night... it wasnt perfect but i still liked it.. *shrugs* wish dofu wasnt so uhm.. fah sum or something.. interested in so many guys =/ oh well... i cant do anything about it ...

chau... as much as i had liked her, i think ive given up.. oh well

tryin to forget all this relationship business and just finish school.. take GRE's.. apply.. and get the crap out of vegas for a long long vacation.. may or may not disable facebook too... tho im so tempted to post pictures daily on the food.. xDD that would make so many people hate me... like chau, rachel, prob dofu, etc.. xD o well

iunoe if im lookin forward to dofu visiting as much as i had before... a lot of hopes i had, had just fallen ... past the ground... i wish i had a punching bag... i really want to hit something but not someone... want to let out this "something" inside me... anger? jealousy? sadness? iunoe... meh :( *sigh* i guess we will just see what happens....