why is she so hard to impress or make happy :( i just wanted to surprise her with her favorite cupcake and a mini panda squishable.. but she just squashed the plan :( son of a bitch *sigh* i had thought there might have been a glimmer of hope that it might work out... but i dont even see that glimmer anymore... man how things can change within a few days ... wish its easier to tell u things more directly :( i know u know i like u already but bleh :( im sad now... but listenin to Joey has helped a bit...

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on the side note, dofu is coming in less than 11 hours... iunoe if i should be happy or not.. :( originally she said she was coming for my graduation... then it got delayed a week.. then it pretty just evolved to nothin to do with me. =3 guess work will start earlier than i had thought.. was gonna wait until her visit and after rachel's goodbye party but bleh -.-" nothing ever goes the way you hope it to...