hm. am i thinkin of her too much?

have been told that the whole husband n wife thing... and me calling her wifey kinda freaked her out?

did she lose trust in me because she had thought i went for doris because i couldnt have her as a gf?

i knew the husband n wife thing was temp cuz it was all a thing we decided to do due to our hunger for food... and wanted to go to brazilian... so we did the whole anniversary thing... and i guess it was kinda my fault to continue callin her that afterwards.. but eh...

yah i admit i had liked doris due to some similarities but i never had really went for it. always had joked about it a lot of whatever but i knew it wouldnt work. it was such a temp thing that i didnt think it would have affected that much?

=3 iunoe.. ive tried quite hard goin after chau but still hasnt seem to work out.. thought it would have been a little better after the so-called anniversary dinner but things seemed to have went downhill since then.. first the encounter with her grandmother... iunoe what made me so nervous that nothing had came out of my mouth... to the not translating the thing me and dofu had said on FB.... it went really downhill... iunoe if u are busy or its because i went out of town or whatever.. its like we had lost contact for like 2 weeks or so.. =[ i really wanted to tell u what we talked about but doing it would only make u feel bad and sad...

GAH IUNOE WHAT TO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T_T this entire trip, ive been tryin to find something for u but had no such luck in doing so.

should i give up? i know u dont want a relationship... u probably never had any feelings other than a friend towards me.. why am i still trying? =[ IUNOEEEE