I miss her. Having a lot of dreams about her lately.. She hasn't been taking to me either.. Hope she's not mad at me for the other or for messing up in front of her grandma.. Things to have seemed to went down hill since then...

Wonder what she did last night.. She usually doesn't get to stay out that late..

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just read her recent blog... now makes me feel even worse =.= not many gets to meet her grandma... then when i did, i screw up :( i dont care if her grandma is mean or not really accepting or anything... i dont mind either way... but hey, as dofu said, its not like im her bf or anything... why am i thinkin about it so much? maybe feelings had grew more than i had expected :'[

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was super sad yesterday cuz of the funeral. i tried so hard to not cry.. didnt want my grandma to see me like this =3 so i had like a river forming the entire time.... D: that was hard to hold >< thankfully dofu was able to come out last night after work with toshimi. was a fun time. im not sure if they had a fun time but considering the fact of the earlier on the day, it was a definitely change of events for me... it really cheered me up.. i love seeing dofu xD never a sad moment with her =3 LOL finally was able to get her the tofu shes been waiting for me to get her for so long... and the crepe i promised her too xD so i guess it was a good night for her too? iunoe xD i kept falling asleep in the car while toshimi was driving cuz they kept talkin to each other and i was quite tired to begin with due to the continuous preparations the past few days... o well