heh FML. When i had finally gotten over the last "emo" episode, and thought i had found someone new, there's always someone that seems to love coming in and destroying it. As i had mentioned before, i had met this new girl at a friend's bday, and had seen her again at KBBQ with the same friend. Tried starting to talk to her and stuff, tryin to know her...

then here comes leng, trying to be a nice person, tryin to give everyone a job who needs one, asks for her number b/c he wants to see if she can come work with us by meeting up with Emily.. Apparently a phone call that was supposed to just be asking if shes interested and info to go meet emily, because a 3-4 hour phone call. I know im probably thinking too much but what the heck... Was talking to her yesterday and everything i try to bring up or mention, shes like "oh leng already told me this and that" im like wtf -.-" I didnt want her to meet misa either, knowing his personality and such but apparently they had known each other from key club through old mutual friends... and he's saying like he regrets not getting to know her better and now trying to make up for it..

*sigh* WHY CANT I FIND ONE PERSON THAT I CAN LIKE... not to sound selfish or anything.. KEEP TO MYSELF ... without the influence of those around me =.=

Ariel, eh... she made me more active in CKI cuz i wanted to see her but nothing more than friends had ever happened there.. Never went out with her, just me and her kind of thing.. She's still one of the most beautiful girls i've ever known tho.

Cami, whom i had a fun, unique connection with.. Saw her and hung out with her every friday of the week b/c we volunteered at the boys n girls club.. she was fine up until she met the other CKI people... then she went like FASA then just got too busy to be seen anymore..

Sheila.. she was fine.. we had a lot of similar interests.. Esp Loving Joey <3 xD and she spoke cantonese.. quite tall.. we hung out for lunch a lot but our schedules for a semester split us up so we didnt get to see each other anymore.. now we both graduated, x_X

Chau, well we all know what happened there... o well. at least i somehow was able to recover the friendship :P i think we are fine now. Talking and whatever like normal again. Thats good =]

Now Judy, who i had thought would have been nice for a fresh start since she didnt know most of my friends, could like talk and meet with her outside of the friends group .. she loves eating... but shes skinny o_O shes quite unique.. like she LOVES eating food.. she REALLLLLY enjoys it.. which is great cuz i love food too like we all know.. and i like cooking.. so would be REALLY nice if she had the same enjoying reactions when i cook.. that would be like.. AWESOME LOL .. dreaming a little too far here i guess.. now just.. bleh T_T she went to meet up with emily and was like really influenced by emily because we all think emily is like a super woman. young korean woman (well not really YOUNG YOUNG but still quite young for her success in life... and obviously shes a asian woman so looks freakin young too) but being at < 40 yrs old.. having went to John Hopkins UNiversity (one of the most prestigious medical universities in the country.. not for the grad program.. undergrad), went thru law school and became a lawyer, has been a 5 star restaurant chef, and now a realtor/property manager.. who can NOT say shes not like a super woman having done all that ! Indirectly, shes like mentor for all of us. Shes super educated and influential, and super nice and funny.. She liked meeting up with Emily.. But considering shes going into occupational therapy, the job wasnt really something that fits what shes going into (not like it fits me either but just saying).. but now as of like 15 minutes ago, apparently shes with leng at tea planet (who i had just asked judy if she wanted boba this weekend.. there goes that stupid freakin plan) working... not sure working on what but bleh -.-"

doesnt help that she has limited texts (500) to people who are not verizon either =3 and me mostly texting, minimal calling,..

yah im probably thinking too much huh..... Iunoe. sometimes i wonder about leng.. if hes tryin to help everyone and just this stuff happen coincidentally or he plans all this... then Misa.. we all know how he is -.- only "good" thing he has is his mouth.. smooth talking.. but in most cases, that just pisses other people off >_>

---------------

ow my neck hurts. chau and dofu is goin on vacation tonight :( that means i lose two of the most important people i talk to daily/nightly till tuesday :( QQ hope they have fun.. eat lots.. play lots.. be safe... DEFINITELY BE SAFE considering the weather while they are there goin to one of the MOST DANGEROUS roads -.-"

do do...dododo.... do dododo do .. do do.. ba ba.... bababa? xD