hm. so i went to trade show yesterday in hopes to find something nice for chau. and dofu. and vi. i couldn't find anything. im sad :( but i did run into this booth at the beginning that did wooden roses.. wonder if i should make like a big bouquet :o :D the first bouquet i ever made worked out.. 2nd one for ariel failed... 3rd times a charm? XD im tryin to decide what # of roses to do. dofu said 38.. good numbers? xD

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had a weird dream last night.. i was watching some movie or drama or something... and before i knew it.. i was in the movie in place of teh guy... i kissed the girl in the movie (that was where the movie was at) and went down to her neck and started kissing it.. then when i went back up, she became chau o.O iunoe at this point right now, i think im.. kinda over obsessive? iunoe would u call it that if u think of someone whos not ur gf but want to potentially be ur gf... always thinkin of them and consider them in almost anything u do (that u can consider anyway...) i dont know.. then i woke up xD

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was tryin to find a nice b-day present for chau. maybe ill stop by there again wednesday after class.. i had an idea about getting like a cute pendant and chain .. not a heart one but maybe the shape of an animal or something? maybe she'll wear it? iunoe.. its so hard to look in the jewelry section at the trade show.. everything sparkles... and the lights are so bright.. your eyes hurt after a while :( either silver necklace and pendant.. or a charm bracelet... or a spinny ring that she's wanted for a while lol.. couldn't find anything :[

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for some reason dofu stopped talkin earlier and said she was a bit annoyed on fb... she was lookin at presents for chau but she was saying she had no money so i joked about cancelling a trip (obviously not the hawaii one shes about to go on with chau) but she was like.. the money doesnt go back to my account.. i was like you can use it later in another future trip! then shes like, just for your suggestion, im going to canada.. im pretty sure she knows how annoyed i am about her always talkin about jason when shes in a relationship with paul.. i have come to mostly accept paul being with dofu but now all she really talks about is jason this jason that... then after she said that.. i was like after that trip, you going to definitely spend more than that... abortion.. then shes like wow wth thats not funny.. then she hasnt said anything since.. but what else can i think.. all u talk about is jason.. he sent u a gift.. u both went from little to no feelings to maybe liking each other right now.. what do i say to that :( i really hope you'd be able to change one day.. this is one of the traits i really dont like... =[ taai.. uhm.. fah sum ah.. while with one person, ur thinkin about another.. very bad.. =[ i could never do that.. to be able to be with someone, for me, is like a gift.. i take em for granted and will never EVER do anything to harm it.. iunoe thats just me.. i dont like cheating or anything of the sort.. hearing what had happened to chau b/c of what george did really hurts.. that she had to go thru something like that.. and to still talk to him now.. that's quite brave.. =/ i wish there was some way i can ensure her.. i would never do something like that to her.. i would never think of it.. never consider it.. never even try. ill protect her with all of my power to any extent i can.. =/ sure its easy enough to type it but to have to say it to her in person is completely different.. every time i think/talk about asking her out to like dofu, my heart begins to speed up... =/ if only she reads this.. then i wouldnt have to at all... but what strength would that have from text.. words that had been typed out... and read by another.. =/ life isnt so easy =[ its been said this year is gonna be quite bad in terms of relationships for uhm.. rabbits.. toh fah geep.. i dont quite understand the full meaning of that phrase but its probably along the lines of dont get into relationships.. or if u are in one, it wont end well. or something like that.. =/ but im still trying.. i really had planned to ask her last week on friday if we had went to snow ono... but she didnt end up going because she had errands to do with her grandma... then sunday that she had off, she dyed her hair and didnt make it to lunch =[... *sigh* i dont know what to do.. i wish i did...or had something i can find out how she feels... right now.. i really dont know what she is thinking.. or feeling.. =/ i wish she had a blog that she wrote things out but didnt like give it out.. but i still somehow found it and read it.. wouldn't life be great then? =[

but back to the topic about dofu.. if what i had said really did annoy you, i really am sorry :( i didn't mean to make u unhappy, or annoyed. =/ *sigh* hei mong nei gum man fun yeun, ting yut wui mong gei la.. =[